Hi, my name is Tapiwa and I think a blog has can play an important role in the lives of many. If you can remember around the early 10’s the words “blog” and “blogger” were spreading around at a rapid pace. I always look back on those few years at such an important time for the modern day blogger and the change in a bloggers role in multiple different industries. Around this time I was just a young girl who was greatly in love with fashion and if we can remember the year 2009 and the bright and fast emerging blogging scene, I also began to fall in love with bloggers and the work they did. Cause I’m a bit of a particular one I loved fashion incredibly much but I never ( or not seriously ) wanted to become a fashion designer so that left in this weird space of consumer/ admirer until the emergence of bloggers. This newfound status gave me something to hope and aim for, and from then onwards I wanted to be a blogger.
I always approached the subject very awkwardly, I mean I had all the bloggers I liked and enough ambition to take me to the moon (and back). But what I was lacking the mos was courage. I lacked the thing that I needed to go to google and search ‘How to start a blog’ I just couldn’t do it. There is one thing about me that I struggled and still to this day struggle with and that is seeing my value and potential as a human. I never believed that I could be as cool or pretty as the blogger front row of all the fashion shows, I didn’t think I had the guts (or the body) to wear the cool and daring outfits that my favorite blogger rocked on the daily. So I just watched, I watched others and compared myself to them on a seriously harsh level. I always imagined so many things and never actually went out and tried one of them. Pretty sad actually. But one day I decided to actually go out and do this whole blogging thing (this was around the time when starting blogs was becoming a bit more common). And so I started this blog “Yaaaaay”.
It was more fun than I thought it would be. To plan cool outfits and have someone take pictures of me, I must admit that I quite liked it. Some of the stuff wasn’t even that great but it was just the experience of having something out there and expressing myself creatively through words and images. I loved it. Every post became a new way to challenge myself and express the emotions and changes I was experiencing not only through the fashion but also through the short excerpts I left with each post. Reading my posts back I left a lot of myself vulnerable in those short excerpts and I am so grateful for that because I treated this website like a friend whom I could talk free;y with and dump out all my emotions and problems on and also tell when good things happened as well.
Over time I started using my blog less and less and eventually stopped. I’m pretty sure I even forgot I had a blog. I didn’t (and don’t) really have a lot of followers so nobody really noticed that I had gone. It was almost like I never really had a blog. This also has to do with how the website blogging industry has been on a decrease over the past few years with Instagram and such but I also had personal reason holding me back from posting to my blog.
Well, the last actual post to this blog was in December 2016. Relatively not that much time has passed by but still long enough right? Anyway, the reason why I decided to return to the fruitful world of blogging is because I love it. And that’s it I feel happy when I make content even if only one person (or no one) even if it doesn’t get any likes I love it so much. And I wasn’t always this way a younger much more self conscious me would get so crazy over like and views and stats as time went along with my blog. But I think that I realised that when I do this I want to be a vessel translating the things that I am meant to do and whether this gets any attention or not I want to keep on making art and putting out content into the world. I know that this can seem like a backwards way of thinking especially in the time of content creating, followers and montising as much as you can. But I’m not on this earth to suceed (at least but the modern definition of it), I’m on this earth to be happy and spread love and light to others and myself. So thats why yeah.
I wanted to do this for my first post back to the whol world of blogging and I’m not yet sure of what blog this will become and which changes it will under go but I guess we will only see in the future.
xo Tapiwa
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